Finally I got the answer I've been waiting for months. Truthfully I already knew the answer from long time back but now hearing it directly, I honestly felt very relieved.
Oh shall not talk too detail here but ya, for me, it will at least stop me from thinking so much and I really really felt that one big rock has gone out from inside my head. ;D
well, I know it's not the time to be happy or what(fyi the ans is ):) but really, now I felt as if the world understood me for the first time.
Though in reality.....
Amo tePenghong signing off~